It's a long time since I wrote the last post. I don't really have the mood to write on the next thing I want to share. But lately, I thought that no one would see this page of blog. And I'm ready for everything, something that I cannot tell others.
I have my own community in my university. We can share something together, we can have fun toghether, we can pray for each other. But lately I realized that I don't have any real friends regardless my close friends. We are friends but we don't care about each other, well I do. One of my friends said that if you want to have a friend, be one. But the reality said that I have put myself into that position but no one wants to be my real friend. They said they care about me, they want to spend together, and share mission and vision together. But, where are they?!!!
I just so sad to see that. I can't do anything to cheer myself up. Sometimes it's a dead end for me. But Jesus still be my friend and always be my friend. Don't care about other things. Now, I will live my life with God and I don't wanna care about 'them' for this time.
I have my own community in my university. We can share something together, we can have fun toghether, we can pray for each other. But lately I realized that I don't have any real friends regardless my close friends. We are friends but we don't care about each other, well I do. One of my friends said that if you want to have a friend, be one. But the reality said that I have put myself into that position but no one wants to be my real friend. They said they care about me, they want to spend together, and share mission and vision together. But, where are they?!!!
I just so sad to see that. I can't do anything to cheer myself up. Sometimes it's a dead end for me. But Jesus still be my friend and always be my friend. Don't care about other things. Now, I will live my life with God and I don't wanna care about 'them' for this time.
1 comment:
same case happens to me too.. I got the feeling that I'm a loner. Even though many people around me, many people know me, but they don't really care and understand me. However, I'm not the type of person who can show it out to others.. If I face that condition, I pretend everything is alright, showing my happy face around while I'm crying in my heart.. Guess you feel the same?
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